Maybe a ray of light

D and I wanted to see his goddaughter today (she's 10) but sadly she went to her sisters house. But her mother was home and we had a long wonderful talk with her. I actually opened up to her and told her about all of my issues and she told us that we can adopt through the state and it's free the only thing you pay for is application fee and probate to change the child s name. She runs a medical foster home and has adopted many of her children included D's goddaughter. After we left the house we talked and decided we are going to start the process. We always said we wanted to adopt because of his goddaughter but didn't think we could because of the money issue. I'm still not giving up on a biological child just yet but there's still a little hope that we will have a child.