Tu Plus Tu ~ The journey to start our flock: April 2014

It's the 25th Anniversary of National Infertility Awareness Week, so please make sure you spread the word you never know who will hear your story and how you can help someone who is afraid to speak up. Infertility shouldn't be a dirty little secret.

Here’s how you can help spread the word about Infertility Awareness:

Educate: Post a Facebook status or Tweet about Resolve about when to#NIAW

Support. Provide support to someone struggling, even if it's just a quick hug and let they know you are there if they need you.

25 things to say and not to say

Share. Start a blog, talk to people, to share your journey. Your experience may encourage someone to seek help sooner or ask a question they might not have asked otherwise.

25-ways to raise awareness

Encourage. Last but not least, encourage a friend struggling with infertility to find a fertility doctor or get a second opinion

The last few weeks have been hard in more ways than one. The house is starting to take its toll on us, both physically and mentally we are drained.

I know there is an end in sight but it's not near or even close to being near. We still have so much to do, we've had a dumpster at the house for a month and have filled it twice. We never realized but they truly were hoarders, organized hoarders but still hoarders. The only good thing is everything had it's place and it was neatly tucked away either in the attic, basement or garage in nice little boxes.

We still have to find someone to get rid of all of the furniture and things that we should be able to sell and try to make some money. We had a tag sale and made a grand total of $120, and I think about $1000 worth of stuff walked away for that. But I guess it's still better than throwing it all in the dumpster and have to pay for getting rid of it.

One of the hardest things now is that D is back in school so we have to try to do all of this two days a week. I'm working 60 hours a week and he's in school full time so trying to get this done is even harder and really at this point I just want it done and over with.

Now as far as our baby plans they have been completely put on hold and the sad thing is we actually were able to get some money saved for D-IVF in europe but now our schedule won't allow it.

With D in school and no time off allowed until at least next March maybe longer that plan has basically been put on the back burner and as much as I want a child and we want a family I don't know if this will ever be back to the front.

I'm scared because if we do wait until he's done with school that means I won't give birth until I'm 42 years old and I don't know if I can do that, and if I want to wait another 2 years to have a child. This means by the time said child graduates high school I will be 60 years old.I know people do it but again it's scary. I saw what my mother went through and I swore I wouldn't do that to a child, she was older and unable to keep up at times and she really tried but it was hard for her so again this is always on my mind.

I know I will figure a way to work this all out but right now I'm just feeling like the weigh of the world is on my shoulders.