Emotions

I found a positive pregnancy test that must have dropped behind my desk, and to see those 2 lines was really hard.  I thought I had tossed them all but when you're saving 30 pee sticks it gets hard to keep track of them.

I should be 6W+4 today but instead I'm trying to figure out how to pay for another cycle.  Anyone have $10k they're not using?

It's over

From being hopeful to hopeless in one feel swoop.

A few short days ago I was filled with hope there was a child growing inside of me it had happened,  I was finally going to get what I always wanted,  I was going to be a Mom.  I was going to give my husband what he wanted,  the chance to be a father again,  but now those dreams are gone.

I finally saw that elusive second line but now  that line has faded right along with my dreams of motherhood. Also faded are all of my symptoms, the bloat,  the naseuea and the boobs that were so sore I couldn't stand it but right now I would give anything to have those unpleasantries back. 

FML

The roller coaster from hell continues.  2 lines on a test,  cramps and bright red blood.  I'm waiting on a call back from the nurse line.

Stark White!

Stark Fucking White!

I really thought we had it,  I really thought this worked.

This had been a roller coaster of a 2WW crazy symptoms,  bloat, cramps, nausea followed up with the worst dye run/evap on the face of the earth.   That gave me a BFP on 8DPO to a few squinters that liked promising but I think it was just trigger leftovers.   To this bad boy right here!

I'm broken in every sense of the word both physically and emotionally.  I hate my body, I hate the little critter for not being able to do the one thing it should.  Mostly I hate that I can't give my husband what he wants most in life.